Hello blog! So the topic for today is dreams and passion and the pressure of having one. In a world where everyone is constantly fighting to earn their identity and chase their dreams, here I am with no dream or purpose. You watch these videos on social media or read about motivational journeys of successful people. I can’t help but envy those people because they know what they want and it makes me think of how my life has no purpose. It feels like everyone around me has a plan except me. I feel like an outcast in my own life.
So, in this fast pacing world, how important it is to have a dream? They say “Dream big or go home”. All the motivational books about success has one thing in common- Follow your passion and success will chase you. But, what about people like me who have none. I am tired of forcing myself into thinking what am I really good at which can eventually turn into a career. The answer is – I don’t know. Infact, my dream is to have at least one dream or passion that I can chase.
I have pondered upon this for so long that now I honestly have no energy to stress over it. Maybe, it is okay to not have a specific dream or passion. Blessed are those who have one but sometimes life can be crooked or rather unique in its own way. I am sure there are few other people like me out there. It might make you feel worthless, hopeless and angry but what good is it doing to us? It is only a wastage of time to obsess over something that makes you feel like shit. So, I have promised myself that from now on I won’t stress over it. Life is full of unplanned possibilities. I just want to go with the flow and live in the present rather than constantly worrying about my future
Some people are not even blessed enough to have choices in life cause they are busy making ends meet. So, let’s not throw away all the 90% of good things in our life just because we are too busy obsessing over the 10% of the bad stuffs happening in our lives. I recently came across a quote “Our main business is not to see what lies dimly at a distance, but to do what lies clearly at hand”.
Lets not focus on things that are yet to happen that we forget to live and appreciate the small things that we are blessed with like your good health, food, love, family, comfort, and many more. Having spent the last year in utter frustration, stress, hopelessness and insecurity . Let me tell you it doesnt do you any good. It rather makes you feel like a horrible and selfish person . I want to be a better version of myself. But more importantly I am learning to love myself and live my life . There are times when I still feel insecure, scarred, and hopeless. Everytime I feel like that , I just pray to God and ask for strength and wisdom. My battle is with my own inner voice that tells me I am not worthy or talented enough to survive in this world.
I will fight my demon one at a time but in the meanwhile lets not forget to be grateful, kind and happy. “Carpe Diem”- let’s seize the moment and live in the present. For instance, I am going back to college after taking a year break for my mental health and finally finish my masters degree even though i have no idea if I belong in my department. Nevertheless i have no plan right now so maybe the practical thing to do is finish what i started at least for the sake of my parents. Wish me luck.
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